To realize

All the silence around
isn't that quiet.
You are screaming
loudly
in the middle
of the room.
The bird is starring
at me.
Scary
as it is.
I want to
break it
but your scream
petrify me.
I suddenly realize
that I'm not the only one
who swallows your scream
at night.
I had known it
since we first met
but I didn't want to
realize.
I'm realizing too much.
Realizing how sweet you was.
Realizing how dark your eyes are.
Realizing that I can't be yours.
Realizing that you have too much.
That you have too many.
Realizing...